I want to warn you that during the writing of this piece my thoughts saw a different side to leadership and life because I’d just watched a video about the brutality of history compared to present day.
I also had deep thoughts about the crucifixion and I put my mind in the body of an innocent man being tortured. In these thoughts, I saw myself starved being brutally beaten. Sick, on stage, acting out my entire life as though I were happy but deep inside there was more going on. I saw people living lavish lives enjoying themselves as I suffered severely. I saw them drinking, tipped over in wealth as a tear fell from my eye. My soul being ripped out daily as they basked in their riches. I’d become a king of sorrow and as my flesh died while being lifted in the air I could feel my feet burning as they set fire to my legs. The pain I could not endure. I’d become a slave to the world, dying slowly every precious moment that I saw them all basking in purple alcohol and weed. I could feel blood and sweat falling from my head with the crown of thorns seeping into my scalp. With the little consciousness left I saw black birds flying overhead as the burning sun burned at what was left of me. I’d performed this act very well as I saw my disciples do nothing. Crying out to God all I could hear was a voice in my head telling me that this is a price that I must pay for the souls of man. The pain soon became numb. What did I do God? What did I do to deserve this? As they closed the purple curtain and I gave up the ghost the show was over, the crowd was left with a burning cross and as I gave up my spirit they all stood at a crossed road and had to make a decision, but…But…BUt….BUT my soul would rise. They owned the world, but I now owned the heavens. What a performance, what a show. The crowd cheered and threw roses on stage. I gave it all. I did it for them. Love is a brutal performance that we all must play. God loved them so much that I stood in between.
The Purple Curtain Call