Thursday, August 23, 2018
Journey to the End of the World
Deep below the ocean, far beyond the blue sky, there's a vast body of energy. The energy is infinite, like sperm racing to an egg. Forgive me for being too blunt, but my description of what I'm witnessing is somewhat of a vague dream. I hear something loud, something like an instrument. It sounds like an adult playing something from the brass section of horns. I awake and look at my hands and I don't see anything. It's all feelings and emotions, something like living without a body, if it were possible. My mind begins to race as I search for a vessel, something to hold onto, but all I see is a bright light. I then notice two white horses and an open book with many languages and a vast body of ice floating across the seas with dead prostitutes and dead kings frozen inside of the ice. Their blood fills the ocean water while new life emerges from the ocean on the backs of black horses. I close my eyes. I'm afraid of how far my imagination will take me. The tranquility of home is no more. I don't want to look at what's coming next. I then hear a voice calling me; I open my eyes, only to be deceived by a woman who takes my hand and rubs it across her stomach. "In me is a seal that I want you to open," she says. Her force is too strong, I can't resist. I look into her eyes and I see the fate of an entire generation. I notice a dagger in her right hand and a crown of thorns on her head. Her tongue is like that of a snake, she has been set free. I fall to my knees while realizing that some bird like human with wings has rescued me from her wrath. Flying through the sky, I notice a rainbow in the distance. Then I see a bridge made of solid gold. The human bird like creature drops me on the top of a mountain made of pure crystal. In the distance I hear a crowd screaming holy, holy, holy at a group of children with their ears covered. "Are we all just beings that have been thrown out of heaven?" the children scream back. There's a poor man on top of the mountain with me, he calls me over to him and puts my hand on another seal. He then shows me the fate of twelve rich men swimming in gold. Instructing me to open up the seal, he flees and jumps into the sea of gold to save the rich men who would not save him. I cut the seal with my nail, only to open up a book with a body of fire sweeping across a deserted planet. I've seen too much. I fall to my knees with no understanding of why I'm seeing what I'm seeing. I try to regain my consciousness but whatever force is keeping me in the state of mind that I'm in, it must not want me to wake up. Blinded by a cool light, I go further. I then wake up naked in a tub with doctors rushing to check my vitals. Deep in the adrenaline rush to save my life, all I can see with a few blinks of my eyes is a pool of pills and patients walking like zombies. Trying to gain consciousness, I fall to the floor, and out of the corner of my eye, I see a rabbit peeking through the window. A doctor then stabs me with a needle and I quickly go under, I comprehend nothing that the doctors are doing together. I'm lost in my own world. "This world is mysterious," I whisper to myself. In that thought, I wake-up on an operating bed and see people looking at me through a thick set of glass walls. I rise from the bed and begin punching on the glass, I stop when I see my family, they seem older. I've surpassed them in knowledge. Most of them have been overcome with the woes of life. Realizing that I'm the last male left in my bloodline, I try to come to grips with what is happening around me. After coming in and out of consciousness, I begin to write my thoughts down on a tablet in the room. It's evident that I've reached the end of all thinking. I've reached the end of all knowledge. Everything has been used up. In search for more meaning to life, I've been left alone in this huge room, pounding on a wall made of pure glass, only to realize that no one is listening, everyone has moved on. I'm in my own universe and I've fallen too deep into my own thoughts. Deep in misunderstanding and lost in all eternity. Drowning in sorrow and regret, the lights go out and the darkness of space takes away my air. My soul leaves my body as my spirit floats away to the beginning of time. My spirit floats away to the source. In the process, I see a female goddess in the distance, she doesn't seem satisfied; I also notice a male deity holding a lamb. I'm seeing things from every point of view. This must be the end. Out of my body and out of my mind, I turn my attention to what's going on below me. There's no land underneath me, I've reached the end of the world. There's nothing left. I've entered a whole new world, the journey never ends. I've reached a new beginning.